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April 30, 2008

boohoo`!

it's been like 4days i didn't update my bloggy.

over this 4days really alot of things happen.

i don't know how to phrase it or what.

but i really feel the change.

i feel indifferent to attend lectures.

i have skipped more then 3times.

but i'm not dumb.

i did tap but i just didn't sit in for lecture.

i really don't like lectures.

it's really kind of bored plus is damn NOISY lorx.

worst then my secondary school calssmates.

so i will just skipped it if i could.

i know it's bad lahx. But i'm really tired lorx.

29april

supposed to meet my group at8 in school for CITS thingy,

but i overslept.

thank god.

they don't have AAP practical.

that was like "cool" to them but "uncool" to me`!

because it means i need to stay longer`!!

so i was late, reached school about 9plus.

then 10plus went to SIM to eat.

i was damn hungry luhx.

so sat there till we rot.

went to our space.

damn that machine & that stupid khai`

i press the wrong button.

nevermind it's over.

left school at 1.45pm, took a bus to town to head down to suntec office.

need to collect some stock.

but i was giddy when i was in town.

don't know what damn is it that cause me to have this giddy thingy.

so i called LW she didn't pick up.

never mind i thought she was having lesson.

so i msg her to tell her to call me when she saw the msg.

cause i was like going to faint anytime.

that BFF of mine called back at 7pm.

lucky thing i managed to struggle to aunty betty shop.

if i wait for her to call back i think i really die in ORCHARD ROAD`!

LOL`!

really happy during every tuesday`!

cause i can meet up with charmaine ,rosa & aunty betty.

i really enjoy the time.

was really super duper fun.

30april

lame day, really i think i don't suffer from monday blue but actually is wed thurs & fri`!

cause i really have to wake up like so damn early lorx.

i hate it`!

why can't like make it so must comfortable base then being so intensive?

seriously,i feel that it's like wasting time.

i mean they could like change our schedule till like tues we have 4period of NSL.

i think it will be better.

rather than rushing all the time.

make me really tired.

but today was like sort of lax.

3hours of break.

but gave mdm lau some trouble.

there were a library thingy going in LT77.

but we didn't attend lahx.

cause sian sia.

so we ask Dr eugene to give us AAP.

then when we went for NSL, mdm lau was like why you all didn't go for the talk.

then she was like in trouble. cause it's a compulsary thingy.

aiya just forget it.

it has never come across my mind of going library to borrow a book or so.

maybe go there slack or use the computer or sleep like manpreet.

oh oh oh`!

i took my 2nd dosage today.

damn EXPENSIVE $45.

and i think that the doctor don't even know how to like inject it.

he wanted to jab my butt.

but i insisted that i want it on my hand.

then later he asked me which hand i prefer.

of cos is the non-domainiat haind lahx.

don't why later he go change my hand also.

wah super ex lorx.

swear wouldn't go back there to do my 3rd jab.

♥ posted on 11:51 PM

April 27, 2008

BORED`!

Friday&Saturday was like so down.

I think I did bring some trouble to people around me.

Seriously, I'm sorry.

I really don't meant it that way.

Things just too out of my way.

I'm really sorry.

I don't wish to be like this also.

PW dear, thanks.

I wouldn't keep things to myself anymore.

I will try to share with my BFF.

I know all this is just NONSENSE.

But i think i feel better.

even it really sucks lahx.

Those feeling.

EEK.

Anyway, my health really sucks.

Keep having black-out feeling.

And that STUPID doctor don't bother to give me any medicine.

Then what is going to cure me?

He really didn't use his brain to think.

No medicine i eat my fingers lorx.

Friday I met up with PW&SK.

Okay i think Friday thing just keep it to myself.

It's really a DISGRACE.

SORRY, is the only thing i can express my guilty.

Don't angry arhx.

I really very fan lorx.

keeop thinking about this and that.

Saturday met up with WW&HH.

was sort of fun.

But really I feel so what lorx.

We were in town.

Don't evn remember what we were doing.

I think my decay rate is high.

Seriously, I can't remember a single thing.

Or maybe is nothing special bahx.

Then met WX to take the bag.

After so, she went to TPY meet her friend.

So once again, WW,HH & me.

So walked down to PS to TAKE bus.

This I can remember CLEARLY, because the weather was really torrid.

Even with my sleeveless clothings i still feel the heat.

Then we headed to MH.

Things happen again.

So i was like, hmmm...

I really got nothing but useless to describe myself.

It's always ME ME ME USELESS USELESS USELESS.

lol.

CHOICELESS LAHX.

Then cabbed home at around 1plus.

Then morning i realised happen once again.

aiyo. 黄秀芳，醒醒吧。

我想我只会讲不会做。让我这个没用的人一了百了吧。

活着只有带给你痛苦，带给我辛苦。

那种痛是没人懂的。

♥ posted on 12:22 PM

April 25, 2008

sucks~!

life in polytechnic sucks`!

okay 1st thing 1st.

i didn't mean all lecture,tutorial&practical suck`!

but i prefer tutorial&practical more than anything.

TGIF`!

so today was sort of lucky seh`!

i was early for the meet.

and and and

my class was released early also`!

soo good right and when i reach the bus stop i caught my bus just on time.

so i reached home by 6pm.

so good`!

but things in my class went really really wrong.

somehow, something, someone

really need some reflection on he/sheself.

i don't wish to pin point at anyone here.

but seriously today you nearly step at the wrong people.

i controlled myself because you are still new to me.

but if you really want to try one more time, be my guest.

don't say i'm ruthless.

i don't give anyone, any face.

i don't owe you a single cent.

and to be exact you owe me money.

i didn't go after you cause i regard you as my friend.

but if try to play with my tail.

then i'm sorry to say.

my level of tolerant is DAMN low.

and bear in mind you are now not very "popular" among us.

i'm not trying to imply anything.

not trying to say everyone in class like me.

neither i expect to be like by the whole class.

what you did today i will always remember.

i wouldn't forget about it.

but i'll forgive you.

FOR THIS ONCE.

since we are just new.

i don't care about where you from.

what you earn for living.

i will get you down and meshed you like hell.

♥ posted on 7:02 PM

April 22, 2008

i'm i'm i'm

CONTENTED`!

i'm happy that you reply.

even it was such a super duper short one.

i hope you really take care youself.

if you are reading, really take good care.

feel like telling you i hope i can help you in anyway you wants me to.

but i know u wouldn't bother about it.

after so many months i then realised.

but i have yet to realise what causes all this things.

waiting for a reply.

maybe i just.

forget it.

don't wish to say about anyone then him.

to me, you play an important role.

kill me if you think i'm dumb.

"LOL"

♥ posted on 10:35 AM

我们的开始

是很长的电影

放映了三年

我票都还留着

冰上的芭蕾

脑海中还在旋转

望着你

慢慢忘记你

朦胧的时间

我们溜了多远

冰刀划的

圈起了谁改变

如果再重来

会不会稍嫌狼狈

爱是不是不开口才珍贵

再给我两分钟

让我把记忆结成冰

别融化了眼泪

你妆都花了要我怎么记得

记得你叫我忘了吧

你说你会哭

不是因为在乎

朦胧的时间

我们溜了多远

冰刀划的

圈起了谁改变

如果再重来

会不会稍嫌狼狈

爱是不是不开口才珍贵

再给我两分钟

让我把记忆结成冰

别融化了眼泪

你妆都花了要我怎么记得

记得你叫我忘了吧

你说你会哭

不是因为在乎再

给我两分钟

让我把记忆结成冰

别融化了眼泪

你妆都花了要我怎么记得

记得你叫我忘了吧

你说你会哭

不是因为在乎

♥ posted on 10:06 AM

April 21, 2008

这街上太拥挤

太多人有秘密

玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去

你脸上的情绪

在还原那场雨

这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿

又斑驳了几句

剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里

电影院的座椅

隔遥远的距离

感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于

描述我如何爱你

你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉

已经不对

我努力在挽回

一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给

你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协

是我忽略

你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对

我最后才了解

一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累

你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴

而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

♥ posted on 7:47 PM

April 20, 2008

The gesture (White legs)

Spot the Differences`!

My decade loyal listening ear`! HO LING WEI~!

good morning`!

bonjour`!

i've just reached home from SKII house`!

not really tired so i do some blogging first.

school was like fun but there's some irritating people in my school.

cannot help it but just control.

seriously, no point i continue to pester the same topic and make you lose face.

but last friday,which is the 1st week of school but the last weekday, i skipped my tutorial.

because the timing really makes me sleepy.

i ended my last lecture at about 1pm.

but my tutorial starts at 4pm`! that is like ridiculous.

i was too tired as i was chatting with ling& her cousin the previous night.

so i was dozing in the lecture.

so indifferent on friday.

so i went home to sleep, but meanwhile i was waiting for darling to call.

needed to teach her fundamentals of accounts.

so i happily slept for 5 good hours.

really refreshed me.

so met her at about 7plus at her place.

taught her how to use R2APED2.

then was our gossip time again.

nevertheless we chat till we don't wish to be parted.

so i left at about 11plus.

reached home PW called me.

but i was about to call her regarding saturday thingy.

so we chatted like till 1plus.

headed to bed.

saturday wasn't that fantastic as in not really what we planned for.

early morning i woke up send TJ to MPM together with mummy.

so we did a bit of shopping here & there.

had our lunch together, then headed home to get change to meet LW.

so i met LW, but didn't realised that i forgot about SK.

so he has some physical exercise before joining us. LOL.

rushing to catch the 111bus.

went to suntec to accompany my darling for lunch.

saw that idiotic DONNA TAN HWEE HWEE~!

her name shall not be erase from my memory`!

then some things that not suppose to happen cropped up.

things really didn't turn up the way we really wants.

so LW, SK & me went to The Cathay.

oh we saw his friend there but i think the working there so was like an coincidental`?

we catch Definitely,Maybe. i love the movie.

yes, definitely i'm a water tap.

tears. tears. tears. LOL.

then we ate again. we were like headless to go anywhere so went to SK house to stay over.

but had fun at his place.

both him & LW talk like nobody business.

really loud. and now i was named by LW cousin,YAN YI, the MA YI JIAO~!

so funny of her to call me MA YI JIAO`!

i'm the loudest okay.

so random of me`!

but SK, if you are like reading this please get yourself 1more blanket to complete the set`!

is all just nice but just one more blanket will b perfect`!

okay i think i got myself the longest journal for this month.

now i feel a bit tired and restless.

whole of yesterday was thinking about him.

really misses him.

you are like a tattoo on my skin.

♥ posted on 8:21 AM

April 16, 2008

oh my oh my`!

school has started like 3days.

but practically i only went for lecture for 2days.

cos' Tuesday i don't have school.

but everything was so fun`!

microbiology,sociology,anatomy.

everything was so fun.

best part i make lots of friends.

diyana,jody,joreen,shy yun,peiying,kiki,rachel,wei yi.radiah,shang.

alot alot.

too many to name.

lol.

having lots of fun in school.

and anatomy was really cool.

i learn alot of terms.

oh i'm loving my class.

they were so fun.

but lesson always so early.

but break was fun.

hello my dear friends`!

♥ posted on 7:38 PM

April 14, 2008

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lieis made up on your side

When you walk awayI count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day

And make it OK

I miss you

I haven't felt this way before

Everything that I do reminds me of you

And the clothes you left are lyin' on the floor

And they smell just like you

I love the things that you do

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day

And make it OK

I miss you

Out here forever

I know we were

All I ever wanted was for you to know

Everything I do I give my heart and soulI can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day

And make it OK

I miss you`!

♥ posted on 9:37 AM

April 13, 2008

♥ posted on 8:45 PM

hello`! tmr is my dead end`!

dead end to my hoilday`!

but suddenly i miss him lots.

but who cares.

it ain't the way we could.

i don't know why i miss him so much.

yet i don't know why still feel his touch

but ytd was fun luh`!

went to vivo with darling YT YL WX(not wally) florence n jordan.

but during the 1st half of the time in vivo only me darling & jordan.

doing some eating & shopping.

i think that jordan is bored luh`!

but darling & me having good time shopping`!!

i have a great deal`!

okay i bought 3tops 1sandal 1pants at a cost of $100.

i almost drop dead.

walking all over the malls.

then i saw his 2nd bro.

aiyo i already miss him le still see someone resemble him.

i feel so sad.

really regret.

♥ posted on 8:14 PM

April 11, 2008

ytd was like so sad for everyone.

met up with my decade best friends

that ling long & darling.

ling couldn't open the door for her tuition class then she forgo the intention of going.

while my darling when to do her hair, which she dislike it.

so end up we three was together.

then we headed to bugis.

wanted to do some shopping which i did.

a pair of sandal & a top.

but things just don't go the way we always want it to be.

so something makes my darling really upset happen.

then we stop all our shopping.

headed to wong kok cha chan teng.

had some drinks n thick toast.

yummy i should say.

but we darling feel upset reminds of him.

that actually trigger me.

i think ytd we three is like ke lian chong.

then when we all got home chatted with darling awhile.

headed home rest awhile.

while i was ready to sleep, don't know why call ling.

then we chatted till 3plus.

gosh i'm tired, so i she.

grumble abit here & there.

AND THE WSK SAY WILL CALL DID NOT CALL BACK`!!!!

♥ posted on 12:05 PM

April 10, 2008

oh my`!!

once again i did it AGAIN`!!!

i did something that i regret`!!

grrrrrrrrrrrrr`!!

i don't really know what is good&bad`!

maybe i have not learn yet.

since i was once a dependant girl, it takes some time do learn.

i did not make the right choice`!

i feel so down`!!

8apr tues

met up with kenny luanne ZANN XANTHUS

went to sing K`!

i was so happy that we could sing and play like last time`!!

but something unhappy happen that really makes me so flar up

i'm controlling; i didn't make a show there as i promised.

but i really very very angry`!!

that i don't wish to mention anymore.

i shall put it down and let it go`!

it's not about my friends.

after that we spilt up.

but we went to taka to buy my longchamp bag`!!

that is for my school`

and i'm loving it now`!

muackss`!

then met up with

corrie vane.lee huifen crystal lingwei

went to dempsee road ( i think is this road lahx)

to eat ice cream`!!

the atmosphere was great the girls there were great too`!!

but even the ice cream was marvalous but after taking it i feel like puking it out`!!

but overall good place to go`!!

9apr WED

met up at her place

her mummy cook white fungus soup and ask me to join them.

told my darling that i'll be at her doorstep in 5mins time.

quickly rush to her place & had lunch`!!

then headed to clementi ave3.

that place make me headache.

i was walking under the torrid sun.

and not only cause me haedache but giddy.

i'm still giddy-ing.

did darling hair did mine.

okay i think i have a range of colour.

don't care`!!

lol`!

then went to far east.

back to shop.

then was like i didn't shop at all`!!!

so today i'm gonna do some shopping`!!

i don't care`!!

♥ posted on 11:28 AM

April 6, 2008

okay let's start from the

4APRIL`

was a fun-filling day`!

went to sauna at trenny house`!!

was so fun then went to KTV with linda and so`!

was so fun singing playing`!

then i think i was too tired to do anything when i met

PW Kenny WX Amy SK Daryl YC

so i just sat down get myself a couple of drink

i think i poured too much for my last cup`!

sort of dizzy`!

but i don't know why i couldn't help`!

i took a stick in the last minute`!

just an mixed emotion`!

maybe i have not learn to let every single thing to go.

well, i hope i'm coping well with this.

5th APRIL

last day of my work.

i'm damn sad`!!!

i was so upset`!!

i miss aunty betty i miss those peeping little now and then`!

tattoo no more`!!

then kenny & Wally came to look for me at the shop`!

then we are like headless snake

after bidding goodbye with aunty betty`!

walked out of far east headed to wisma`!

NEARLY`!

i said nearly being knock down by a car`!

got some saying by WALLA`!

yes, so what it knock me down`!

i'm not afraid to die`!

scold me stupid if you think so`!

then headed home watched tv with mummy`!

happily fell asleep`!

♥ posted on 3:12 PM

April 2, 2008

busy busy busy busy`!!!

busy with the account`!!

need to close the account by friday`!!

giving my support for aunty betty`!!

i will miss her alot`!!

sch is starting soon`!!

pretty soon i should say`!!

it so soon that i really didn't expect it to be`!!
i haven't buy any of my school stuff yet`!!

but going to next tues`!!

shopping`!

going to see the longchamp bag whether is there a shape i like`!

then if not i'll go haji lane`!!

i think soon i'll be broke`!!

lol`!!

thanks people i know you all miss me`!!

Robinsons outing i did not attend, sorry my dear i asked you to organise yet i didn't turn up

i feel really bad`!!

♥ posted on 11:51 PM

April 1, 2008

29march08

i PASSED`!!

yipee`!!

so happy`!!

i cannot believe it`!!

but true enough i pass`!!

so happy so met up with darling & her sisters.

BUBBLE tea`!!

then saw this freaking ass hole`!!

keep touching & shaking his stupid LJ`!!

then keep showing it to me`!!

DAMN ASS~!!

i POINTED HIM`!!

a middle finger`!!

then he got so bold he walked near us`!!

but when we took out our phone wanted to ask luke to come down

he ran away`!!

THIS FUCKING INDIAN MUSLIM MAN FREAK ME OUT`!!!

30march08

dear dear`!!

poor zlven`!!

so poor thing`!!

woke up at 9am on a sunday morning`!!
sounded so strange`!!

cause i'm sick`!!

got food poisoning`!!

i think was the BUBBLE tea`!!

vomited for <4times`!!

then got diarrhoea`!!

called my darling to accompany me to see doc`!!

got myself a jab`!!

he actually wanted to jab my butt`!!

cause it would be painfully to have it on my arm`!!

but i don't care i told him to jab my arm`!!

at least i wouldn't get that tension`!!

it's not the tension but the needle STUCK at my butt is the main issue`!

so i rather PAIN then STUCK`!!

31march08

woke up damn early`!!

this time is not because i'm sick but i got INDUCTION DAY~!!!

but it's waste of my time`!!!

the talk i nearly fall asleep`!!

the walk make me swaet for NOTHING~!!!

GRRR~!!!

but i'm happy cause i feel so so so so MUCH better NOW~!!!

♥ posted on 8:56 AM